the curse of insecurity

will asked me to take some more photos for him.... his directions?
"be creative and use my, i mean your immagination"

so last night i set out to do just that
i've taken photos of myself before but never with such specific intent and detail
it was a very vulnerable yet exciting feeling

i took basic pictures of me smiling, me in my bra and one topless
then i took a picture of me licking one of my nipples
i took a straight on pussy shot
and then for kicks i took one of a marker sticking out of my pussy
and the final shot was me sucking on the marker after i took it out

i really wasnt' sure what he would think...seeing my body up that close
but i sent the attachments and went on with my evening

later last night i saw him online so i sent a few messages asking if he got the photos
i got no response
then i sent him an email and still...no response

i tried to not let it bother me, but i was so upset last night......
thought i had turned him off, maybe pushed it too far with the marker shot
or maybe he didn't like my pussy

all these thoughts of insecurity came pouring over me and i ended up not going to sleep til about 3am

i woke up this morning and there was a message in my inbox

"pics came through but i couldn't get at them til today. what a way to kick off a day..mmmmmmm. was seriously thinking of taking a sledge hammer to this stupid computer last night, it froze up like a naked eskimo."

sigh

my insecuirty strikes again
i gotta get that fixed