hungry

hunger is an interesting feeling
i can go all day without eating do to work, school, and the miscellaneous routines of life and not even notice
and then without warning
i feel it
it doesn't creep up on me or give me warning signs along the way
but all of the sudden it's there
the hunger
the aching sick feeling which tells me i need it
and i need it now
i need food, nutrients, my body is becoming weak without it....

and this weekend i became hungry
but for different reasons
i went home for easter and do to my crazy schedule
and no privacy, i was unable to feed myself in other ways
and in all the distractions i didn't even notice until it calmed down
i was doing laundry monday morning, i called him...and it hit me
i needed him
and i needed him now
i felt it in my body
i was aching, my skin was red.....
his voice....so sexy and deep and low
i could hear he was hungry too
he wanted it too....
the rest of the day seemed to drag on
the laundry, packing, driving the 3 hours back
going to class
i was wet the entire time
my clit throbbing
went to the restroom right before class
my panties were soaked
did it show through my jeans?
could anyone tell?
i couldn't hide it, i couldn't help it....

later that night, he called me...
and within a few seconds, i was in my bed
and naked
my skin was still warm and flushed
and the intensity of us fucking was so strong
that it swept me up over and over
my body convulsed, shaking, brought tears to my eyes
i could feel it
it wasn't my toy inside me but it was him
he was thrusting deep inside of me
he was kissing my taunt nipples
he was sending me over the edge
over and over again....

i collapsed onto my bed when it was over
wetness covering me, my toy, my bed

and finally....i was full
at least temporarily

phone sex melting pot

have had phone sex with quite a few men in my lifetime
and though i never really thought about it, have begun to see just how different men can be...
some like me to be in control
some like to just listen
some want me to sit up on my sink or bend over my couch
some like to hear my vibe slip in my pussy
some like me to spank myself
i've heard guys make no sound
i've heard guys scream
i've heard guys talk dirty, i've heard guys say things they thought were sexy that just made me laugh inside
i've heard guys grunt and make some very interesting responds
i've heard guys stroke
i've heard a guy fuck one of those fake vagina things

everyone with their own little twist on what they like and what they'd like from me

the most interesting?
he kept wanting me to call him "daddy"
i went with it until he started saying things like "let daddy give his girl his hot daddy cum and make you pregnant"
and that's where i had to draw the line

but i suppose, phone sex is a safe way for him to live out his twisted fantasies...just not my thing

most of them were just one-time situations
or an occasional escape from time to time
a few who were consistent
and they were all melted into my big phone sex melting pot

but recently, very recently actually....
i have become phone sex monogamous
wow how strange coming from me
but i found someone who is satisfying me in more ways than one
same fantasies
same passion for phone sex
and we just match that way
and i have noticed the more we do it, the better it gets
like having sex with someone and learning about their body and what they like
he knows the perfect blend of emotion and lust
and with him it doesn't feel empty
it feels more satisfying
it's more than just sexual conversation but it always ends up that way
but i have no complaints

he introduced me to a new sound i hadn't heard from a guy
he grunts when he's stroking...like he's actually thrusting inside of me
the first time he did it, it made me cum instantly....
it pushed me right over the edge....

so i am doing this phone exclusive thing now
he likes it and though it's new for me, i am enjoying it
it's allowing me to be more real with it and it's making the intensity feel more alive

secret spots

where i work is a pretty big department store that is set on its own
it's not in a mall...but is located in an outside strip-mall sort of situation
it is one big floor and upstairs is the stock room
it's full of clothes and purses and what is known as "back stock"
when i do freight, i can be found up there putting things away
there is so much stuff that it's like a sort of maze
hallways and little corners that nobody knows about
and it makes my mind wander
i have seen quite a few perfect "secret spots"

have been thinking about leading him up the stairs by his hand
no words exchanged but leading him to the back corner
there is a spot where i can sit on
perfect level so he can face me and press up against me
there is even a small ledge behind
so my feet could rest up on that and still be perfect level for him to enter me

there i was last night, putting up signs in the activewear section and i was imagining his smell and imagining my feet on that little ledge
and the wetness started building in my pants
nobody aware but me

in our own little corner being quiet to not get caught
but still letting ourselves get taken with the feelings
i can see the head of his cock
i can feel it parting my pussy, stretching it
and watching it slide in slowly
i can see his eyes and watch them roll back as he feels how wet i am

i can feel my hands on his back and him thursting short fast little bursts into me

all these thoughts...and i noticed my body was pressed up against a display that was perfect level....nobody in sight, i rocked back and forth a bit letting my wetness increase...teasing myself...

not a bad way to start the night

catching up

...am working an overnight position these days.
going on my one month marker.
the job is actually perfect for me right now
in at 10pm and out by 6:30am
jeans, tshirt, ponytail, glasses
usually a pen or two wrapped up in my bun
putting merchandise away, and setting up signs for sales
me in an empty building except the other members on my team
no customers
and a work-out all in one
have already lost weight...

although a couple disadvantages are the abandonment of my blog
and my now up-turned sleep schedule
sometimes 5 hours
sometimes more

but it gives me plenty of time to think

and finally tonight, before i head to work, i'm sitting down to compile and catch up

gonna break these up so it's not just one long post

worth the wait

...
it had been a while
no release for me
pent up

we exhanged emails back and forth
he at work
me just waking from sleep
erotice words and images
passed back and forth through virtual portals
not strong enough to keep out the feeling of reality

a promise of a phone call
the time slipped by and felt so long

i waited impatiently
i needed to hear him
i needed that release
it had been a while

the phone rang
his voice...
comfort in knowing what was to come
i could almost feel him
licking me
touching me
awakening my body

i heard him grunting
as though he was thrusting himself deep into me
and it sent me over the edge

the first time
second and third to follow

and a 4th after we hung up

my name sounds so good coming out of his mouth
his body responding to my moans and screams

i can't seem to get enough of him
i crave him and ache for him

it had been a while but he was definitely worth the wait

when i became not enough

please read the manual

...before you touch me, explore me, enjoy me, please be sure to read the instructions...it will be more enjoyable for the both of us, i promise.

* it is very difficult to get me off with penetration. please do not come with the "well you haven't fucked me yet baby" attitude...it will only add more pressure to the situation and will probably cause me to "fake" it. do not feel defeated if i do not climax that way, it is still very enjoyable for me...very.

* when fingering me and pleasing me orally, i like it slow and soft. i am very tender and going too hard and fast not only keeps me from climaxing but is also very painful. rub my clit gently in circles and lick my slit really slow and softly, it will work...trust me.

* my nipples are very sensitve and having them played with definitely adds to the intensity of my orgasm so feel free to nibble, pull, lick and suck. the more the better.

* i am not a "slam bam thank you ma'am" kind of woman. please take your time with me. i like to get really turned on and nice and wet. it will make it more enjoyable for you and me both in the end.

* my turn on spots are plenty, feel free to explore and find them...a couple give-aways are the neck, ears, and just good wet soft kisses on the lips.

* i do enjoy some anal play but there are several instructions for this area alone and will be discussed in person, but a few pointers...start off small and slow and build from there. i am tighter than most.

* after a good orgasm, a nice long silence can be perfect and just what i need. turning away from you and being silent does NOT mean i was disappointed, but rather totally satisfied and trying to recover my thoughts

* dirty talk is a huge turn-on for me. the more you participate, the more i respond. hearing you moan and tell me how bad you want me will only cause my body to respond in a positive manner.

* there really isn't a position i don't like and feel free to communicate with me any wishes or fantasies or new positions you may have in mind...you never know, i may really like the idea.

* cuddling and touching afterwards is definitely enjoyed and accepted but there are times afterwards when it's needed for me to just not be touched and to compose myself...please do not take it personally.

....and here ends the manual. thank you for taking the time to read the instructions and i hope you enjoy yourself as much as i will.

senses

i saw the sunrise for the first time in a very long time
i tasted crisp refreshing diet pepsi at 2am
i felt the water rush on my face in a cold splash at 5am
i smelled the musty air of cardboard
i heard "6:30 guys, time to clock out"

...my first full night at the new job
captured in the senses

...
i got a text message from judd while i was at work
and told him i was unavailable at the time
"hot and hard in the bathroom?"
i wish i could....i said
i wish i could

but fortunately, i was able to relieve myself before work
no phone
no help
just me and my trusty bullet
the vibrations buzzed through my clit and silenced every distration
focused only on one thing
on that feeling
letting it build build build
until it swept over me
those few seconds before the release
the most amazing feeling....
so intense, sometimes bringing tears to my eyes
and when it fully overcomes me, every muscle in my body clenches and relaxes
every fiber of my being responds
sometimes i lay there overwhelmed
i can't believe something could feel so good
i look at my vibe, shiny from the remnants of my climax
get up, clean it off, put it back in it's proper place
get dressed....and off to work

the line forms to the left...

...
last night judd called for some phone fun. i usually don't mind when he calls me randomly at night because i'm usually home, but this time there was a small problem...
i was in the middle of having phone sex with someone else.

i don't have this HUGE list of phone sex buddies, but i do have a few.
the timing of it all has just sort of worked out and come together and i have never had a "double call" until last night...

i didn't click over because i felt that would be rude.
"hey judd, sorry we can't have phone sex right now, i'm having it with someone else"
i don't think he'd appreciate it very much
even if i said "can you call me in like 20 minutes? i'll be ready to go again"

there has been all this talk lately of being a comment whore and such and i wonder now if i am some phone sex whore
"sorry guys, the line forms to the left"

for all i know, judd could be married with 4 kids...i'm a single gal so i see no harm in having a few phone sex flings...

the guy i had phone sex with last night...
have had phone sex with him a couple times
his voice is raspy and deep
he tends to whisper when he talks and for some reason that intensifies my body's reaction
what he says and how he says it made it difficult for me to hold onto my toy
it kept slipping through my fingers
there was some talk inbetween and we went for a second round

i fell asleep completely satisfied