an old friend

...
i put this blog to rest for a while for a combination of reastons
mainly that i didn't feel i had much to write
i was getting tired of writing
and my everyday personal life was needing attention

but somehow i have found my way back
back to an old friend
maybe temporarily
maybe permanently
i'm not sure yet

but for right now, here i am....

i haven't had sex in i'm not even sure how long now...
months....

but i am seeing someone
have been since before christmas but haven't talked about it for once again a few reasons
1. i wasn't so sure if i was ready to start dating again after steve
2. i wasn't quite sure how it would all pan out
3. i just didn't feel like explaining it all

but the more time passes, the more i realize it's coming upon the time where i shouldn't hide it anymore...

it's not like he's some horrible person that i'm ashamed of but he's definitely not someone i would have pictured me dating...

he's older than me (by 20 years)
he is shorter than me
smaller than me
and he lives about 3 hours from me

but his name was given to me by a friend
and on a fluke i said he could call me
and we met and have been meeting now for over a month...

we haven't slept together and for the first time, that has felt like a blessing.
i'm just enjoying him
he's enjoying me
and we are seeing where this may lead us

but i must say that waking up next to him in bed has been an amazing feeling

and the kisses aren't so bad either