why is it so difficult

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to keep this thing updated?
i remember when i used to write in here almost every single day
now almost a month goes by between each post.....
so instead of saying "oh my life is different now, i'm boring now"
whatever.....
i'll just post.

first off..... if mister 5.25 still checks back here
yes i remember you
and if you'd like to chat......
i'm still on yahoo under my phone_loving_rae76
id
so you can hit me up there if you like.

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and i have to give a shout out to mister "new guy" who had a birthday a while back ....
happy happy love!

so how am i?

things are going pretty well....
i'm still with my man (i know amazing isn't it?)
and talk now is of me getting out of here by the end of the year and (drum roll please) moving to chicago!!!
and yes the plan is to be moving in with him....

it has not been an easy journey at all....
long-distance can be really difficult and it's been what 4 weeks since i've seen him now, but it's been so good to take things slow and to not be so worried about the outcome, and everytime we are together it just fits and everything falls back into place.

is he the one for me?
i dunno, but i know i can see myself with him.
no there are no rings and wedding bells yet, but when i think of a man that can handle me....he fits the mold.

i was watching sex and the city last night and they were talking about two types of females...the simple ones and the complex ones
and i am definitely of the complex variety

and i know being in a relationship with me is anything but simple, but i'm sure there are some benefits in there somewhere as well...
i mean, i CAN deepthroat
that's good right? :-)

and onto the sex part

my toy collection grows more and more and my inhibitions fall less and less and he makes me feel confident in myself in my body and in my sexual conquests....

it's amazing being comfortable with myself sexually and to be with someone that not only appreciates it but encourages it....

i mean who would have thought i would one day find myself on the edge of the bathtub straddling my suction-based dildo, riding it up and down while my boyfriend jerked off....

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